I love this time at the start of the day, at the beginning of a new week, at the close of one season and the start of another. I love finding the quiet of my side porch over-looking our garden with the last of the tomatoes ripening, the pumpkins exploding and some purple flower blooming that we didn't even plant this year. Where did those come from. The trees are the only noise I really notice as the September breeze blows through them. I've got my coffee with me and my Bible in my lap.
I love this time with you Lord.
You know I am wrestling with all that is before me. You know how I feel. I am overwhelmed with the responsibilities before me. I want to be growing closer to you, really growing closer. There are still struggles with sin in my life that I feel like we have been working on forever. I don;t want to be struggling with them forever. Refining my character is one thing. But I want to be clay that you can still work with. Nancy and the girls need me. And I want to be around. The time is flying by. Katelyn and Rebekah are growing up so fast. Molly scored 2 goals in her first soccer game yesterday and I almost missed it. Hannah is speaking in full sentences. I want to be around. I don't want to miss any of this. And I have got to love Nancy first. She really needs me. Keeping this house going and herding the girls is really pushing her to her limits. She has to pick up so much slack for me. If there is anything that has to give or bend or break, Nancy gets it done and gives me the flexibility to do my stuff. Thank you for her Lord. I would be lost without her support and respect. She makes me a better man.
Work is stressful. I can't believe I have to go to a hearing on Wednesday. Did I really make a mistake that may have injured a patient? I can't believe it. Please forgive me. And help me to be humble in the hearing.
Do we really need to talk through all that is going on at church? You know my worries and concerns and struggles. Give me wisdom with people. Help me to be a better encourager. Help me to be gentle with the folks who are suffering. Help me to be a leader with integrity. Help me to follow your leading. Holy Spirit give me strength. Deadlines....past due. Help me Lord to make amends and meet expectations.
Give me peace. And so, you turn my heart towards Psalm 4 and 5
"Answer me when I call to you, O my righteous God. Give me relief from my distress; be merciful to me and hear my prayer. Lead me O Lord in your righteousness - make straight your way before me." -Psalm 4:1, 5:8
Now it's your turn, Lord so I listen.... I love having coffee with you.
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